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Sunday, July 27, 2008
was pretty depressed yesterday's night .. or rather this very morning .. i was scolded by my father.. or rather, my father has raised his voice at me .. cos, i was STILL using the computer and WATCHING SOME TAIWAN SERIES (TV) TILL 3 AM i know im in the wrong ..hais i should have realised that he's angry with me at 1plus or 2 plus ? when he opened the door and (so called) slammed it .. hais W-O-L-S , yes i am . hais to be frank ,my father seldom, or rather NEVER raise his voice at me for like say, 10 YEARS ++ already .. thus, i was quite stunned at that point of time .. i just said "orh.." hais im so regretful .. i should have added a "sorry" behind .. cos i am , truely sorry .. BUT BUT ... i wanna use the computer lehh hais anyway,received my 2nd pay cheque last friday (25/07/08) didnt really have that "thrill".. i mean cant really feel the happiness anymore.. perhaps im feeling down at that point of time.. perhaps, im numb with all the works that is on hold perhaps .....theres nothing to be happy about hais i have even made a mistake when i was writing my account number on the back of the cheque then.. haiss cant even handle such simple task, like writing account number .. haa i guess i am really a gong dai dai .. i told my father about it .. and yea i can see\feel that sian-ness (wateva i dontk now how to describe that kinda of feeling.. you know , the SICKENING DAMN FACIAL EXPRESSION you will see on a person's face when you did something wrong, and they are displeased and show me that ANNOYED FACE YES.. thats the SICKENING DAMN expression ..whats wrong eh ? CANT ONE MAKE A MISTAKE,AT ALL? damn that kinda expression really CAN PISS ME off, like so str8away ON THE SPOT. ) ok anyway, thats not the point. URGHH i dont know the purpose of this entry.. probably for me to ,vent my bottomed feelings again .. RAWR.. .. .. sometimes i really wish to tell you all about something but .. something is stopping me is it disbelief .. or is it because everything is ending soon~ the feeling is just not right ..
3:46 PM
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