A DAY OUT WITH MAY MAY AND LING LING ON LAST SATURDAY ATE BREAD PAPA HAHA
YANLING AND I WERE CRAZY. WE BOUGHT 6 OF THEIR ITEMS, CAUSE OF THEIR "BUY 5, GET ONE FREE! "ah!
SO WE ARE TEMPTED, AND WE BOUGHT 5+1!
WOOO! 2 ECLAIRS, 2 CHOCOLATE CREAM PUFFS AND 2 VANILLA CREAM PUFFS
MY GOSH. THEY ARE NICE!
BUT I DONT REALLY FANCY THE ECLAIR.
ANYWAY YA .. the photo below is the picture of our craziness hahahaAND SOME PHOTOS, TOOK WHEN WE ARE ON OUR WAY HOME

all i can do now is to pray really hard..
hope that i can really finish doing my stuffs everyday!
so that i wouldnt have to stay after 7.30 ,or too late.
=(
c'mon may.. be flexible and do things fast!

one word : STRESS

JSUT WHAT AM I DOING THESE THREE DAYS..
HAHA IM DOING SOME REAL BUSINESS EDITING..
AND THATS ,GIVING ME .. TREMENDOUS STRESS
THINKING, YOU HAVE GOT A DEADLINE TO FOLLOW ..
AND ITS JSUT NOT THE SAME AS BEFORE.
CAUSE THE PEOPLE WHO ARE WORKING AROUND ME, ARE NO LONGER PEOPLE WHOM I CAN LA-LA TO .
MY GOSH.
MY MOUTH STINKS ALOT HAHA
DIDNT GET TO SPEAK AND BE CRAZY EVERYDAY

I HAVE BEEN BOTTOMING MY FEELINGS UP TO MYSELF.
I DARE NOT ASK WHY , WHAT , HOW..
HAHA THOUGH THE PEOPLE THERE ARE QUITE NICE
ALL OF THEM ,LOOK LIKE A FAMILY, WORKING SO HARD WITH AN UNITED HEART.
WHEREAS, i just feel like A OUTSIDER...
WHO IS INTRUDING INTO THEIR HAPPY FAMILY
I KNOW IM THINKING TOO MUCH
I KNOW I NEED MUCH MORE TIME TO ADAPT TO THE NEW SURROUNDINGS..
JUST LET ME RANT ON MAN~!

I DONT DARE TO ASK QNS(i scared that im asking stupid qns), OR MAKE SOME STUPID COMMENTS ON WHATEVER HAHA
WATEVA WATEVA .. I FEEEL SO SMALL THERE
AIYOOO
TO BE FRANK ,, I REALLY MISSSS THOSE DAYS, WHERE I HAVE MY FRIENDS TO BE BESIDE ME ..
I MISS THOSE DAYS ,WHERE I CAN SPEAK FREELY AND DO WHATEVER I WANT
I MISS THOSE DAYS WHERE I CAN BURP WITHOUT FEELING AWKWARD.

I MISS THOSE DAYS.. THOSE PEOPLE ..
YOU PEOPLE =((

SO MUCH TO WHINEEEE

what could possibly happen on my first day of work ?
oh my ..
im so scared..........
paranoid..
but what could i still do ?
ah , all i could do is to pray hard..
hope i can achieve what they* are expecting
hope i can be calm enough to cope with the stress and whatever problems that i might encounter tomorrow ><

*hugs*

金莎 - 我介意

其实我的安静有迹可寻
只是你不太留心而已
如果说两个人在一起
比一个人孤寂
爱会不会过期
渐渐你成为我部落格里
被别人阅览着的心情
我听说留言的人会有个面具
那个匿名的会不会就是你
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化介意你对爱的想法和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了她
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢
ha``ha ``ha
渐渐你成为我部落格里
被别人阅览着的心情
我听说留言的人会有个面具
那个匿名的会不会就是你
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了她
介意你还放不下
该迁就还是一笑而罢
我还是介意你的话
总在无意间变化
介意你对爱的想法和我有了分岔
我介意你没忘了他
介意你还放不下该迁就还是一笑而罢

worried sick ..
how ..
what if i fail my fyp ..
what should i do?

i sense ,something bad is going to happen .. on thurs =(

my birthday is finally over. alot of things have gone through my mind ..
i have seen and,maybe finally realise who are really the ones who will pay attention to me..
..
some people will always be my dearest, my best friends, my goodfriends..
and i know.. there are also some people ,whom i will never get to be close with..
one word, disappointment , for them.
nevertheless, i still enjoy this year's birthday VERY MUCH =)
im really feel so fortunate. to have 2 groups of friends to celebrate my birthday for me ..
THANKYOU SO MUCH =)
i really really appreciate it ... (though i didnt really say it out LOUD..)
and im really really shy abt it .. haha i didnt act lo o.o hais

birthday, just tells us so much about someone, and ... blah blah friendship stuffs..
.
.
.

*thankyou *. you are so sweet . haha =) to get me chocolate biscuits ..even though you have given me presents.. humph. but how can u sleep without saying good night to me .. ugh

and
haha i will, ah, post photos up soon , if i got the time to update. =)
good night =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! haha

a few people have wished me happy birthday.
ahha and im already glad enough.
cos there are people friends who will remember my actual birthday and send me their birthday zhu fu de sms on 12 of may, 00.00 am .. ahah
im really happy =)
uh for those who dont, (hah just like one of my online friends says,
they bo sim .. so) i guess i shouldnt mind them anyway.

haha i dont even bother to list those heartless people out. haha
okay luh im am a fortunate girl! lols
i gotta think positively! hee

幸福 to have you all to be there to encourage me.
.
and ,
i guess i got to sleep soon
CANDY DREAMS EVERYONE! hah
good night!

WAHHHH
my birthday is coming in a few hours time .......
woohoo
i so want to skip school tomorrow.. UGHHH
ahahahha
thank you my friends, who give me an early birthday celebration on friday .. haha
thank yall for the presents haha ..
i haben really open up those presents.. i mean i only see that tigger .. haha
its so cute .. i love it ! though i prefer those practical and useful stuffs.
anyway anyway .. still have to thank you all for the presents ! hee
thanks for letting me know that you all care
hahahah im really gratefullll ><
i feel so fortunate to have a group of friends to sing birthday songs (chinese and english)for me ..
awwwww .. its a very ..awkward feeling .. i feel so touch at that point of time .. hahahhahah
alll i can do at that time is to clap along with themm ...
ahh

gotta bathe soon ,maybe
yeah hahahha it shall be a short entry .

HOPE THAT THEY WILL SEE MY EFFORT TOMORROW
*pray hard*
=(

val is not going to school tomorrow again ..
aye .

however 5 people are coming to my house 2mr!
woo!
hope it will be fun =)

omgosh my head itch so much
gotta bathe soon!

AH ITS PICTURE TIME! HAHAHA
and i gonna show u all photos of the FOOOODD first.

WOO its macdonald's HAMBURGER! its my first time eating .. so i thought i should take a picture of it ..
and see what's inside the burger .. ahh nothing much .. just a slice of beef (O.O sinful.=X) and PICKLES(mmm did i spell it correctly?) and thin slices of tomatoes, perhaps.. haha!

and i think its NOT BAD =) but i still prefer double cheese burger? gee


WELL thats my FABULOUS lunch ..its damn sumptuous and filling! i feel so bloaty after eating all those .. for my LUNCH hahah ><>
seriously, over my budget for lunch .. haha
btw did u all realise .. the color combination for that 2 photos are so matching haha .. i mean is like .. everything is either in pink or yellow .. hahah

ok i haven tell you all what i have eaten . hee.. i have ordered a chicken stew($1.80), nuggets ($1!), a piece of chicken ,with cheese ($1) and the BANDUNG packet drink ($0.50).. + POKKA lemon tea bottled drink ($1) ... whoa .. yeah so it totals up to $4.80 haha -.- quite worthwhile eh ?

thats the chicken ,with cheese (i dont think im going to buy it again.)
the chicken stew! i tell ya. the porportion of the chicken and rice and the gravy is so so so random! it seems like the portions of the food is given ,based on their mood .. lols

ayee .. and yeah thats the end ,for the food ..

they are from the same book : the skillful huntsman. this is what im supposed to do ... for my fypj .. haha we are supposed to start with the exploration of the different silouhette for my characters .. im still doing this now .. its already the 4th week .. oh my .. its unbelievable .. i have wasted my 3 weekssss o.o goodness. however i got to say.. their drawings are really niceee haha

how did they come out with so many different designsss... ?

hee this is from the artbook for the movie: OPEN SEASON hahah .. this is a fantastic example for color test and mood boards.. we are supposed to come up with something, which looks like this. =\my computer HAS this DAMN SICKENING PROBLEM.. this BLUE SCREEN KEEEPS APPEARING !! ughh and my com is forced to shut down ! URPS .. sian diao ..

i tot my desktop is gonna be cranky .. i tot i cant on my computer anymore .. omg omg..

you wun want to know how many times i have restarted my computer today .. ahh

so irritating!!~LOLS!

hey hey
haha thanks ah lobert .. for asking me to update .
ah . actually now , idont really have anything to update you all about myself..
haha all i wanna say now is ..

IM SO STRESSED .
aye aye aye my heart is always pounding so fast, when im in that fypj room everyday ..
ughh i think im getting paranoid..
is like whenever someone opens the door of the fypj room, my heart will skip a beat.. and my eyes will ,naturally, steal a glance at the door/person entering.. haha

and..
im like having so much problems with my drawing now ..
hais .. teachers'(or rather the mentors') comments, made me feel that my drawing ,sucks totally .. aiyo ..
one of them even asks me, "how long have i been sketching?"
meaning how long have i been drawing ... mmmmm
hais
it seems that i dont even have a good foundation for drawing .. haisss
goodness so now ,another guy is showing me the way to draw my characters in perspective..
and IM HAVING SO MUCH TROUBLE ..
im having so much fear, if i were to draw one stroke on the paper..
it seems that i have to think ,before i draw EVERY stroke on the paper ..
being too stiff/tensed is not good . being too loose is not good,too .
=(( oh my ....
im stuckkkk

wohooo, girls haha
im back =) to blog again .
*my hair or rather my scalp itch like siaooo now.. *
yeah anyway,
i have a .. fab weekend. haha
no luh .. not really fabulous.. but its just that i get to go out with my family
aha its a long time since i ever go out with them ..
though we didnt do anything much out there .. all we do is just eattt

and yea i think i saw my online friend, when im on my way home..
how concidence?!
hahaha

digressing ..
...
the ones ,who are close to you ,will normally leave you soon ..
on the other hand, you will always find those ,who aint close with you, to stay around you.
....
haha i saw this in one of the emails i have .. and i think its somehow true .. haha
it has happened on me for a few times already .
maybe. fate just wanna separate me from my close friends, so to "force" me to look for new buddy buddies .. hais..
haha dont misunderstand. i dont mean you people( who are in the same class as me) aint close to me . haha you know, i dont anyhow give people my blog address.. so if you have my blog address, you are considered close to me .. ya da ya da .. anyway yeah

haha ya .. so its like so damn ssad.. cos your, or rather my close friends will normally leave me for the better. hahah yeah who dont leave for the better .. but its like .. aww
i cannot , keep them by my sides..
its just so tiring , to keep having to TRY to talk to strangersss hahahah
okok but it can be fun sometimes.. hahaha
aiyahhh
aiyahh
just , why cant friendship last?
haha i can already see people ,whom im close to in the past, are drifting further away from me.
be it their education, or their hobbies..
damn sad... maybe thats how the communication barrier comes in ..

today aint a good day to start my weekend.
my sketches are critic-ed( ah !~wateva) and are said to be ... "formless"
hahaa and i think what i have drawn earlier on , are useless..
they are just stacks of .. useless drawings that i have done for this past 4 weeks..
gosh .. tell me ..
am i dreaming or what?
i have wasted 4 weeks .. = one month , without realising..
wah lao ... im really wasting my time .
the lecturers keep asking us not to think that way .. but its a truth .
ahhh bleh bleah bleaahh so sian ..
now, i dont even know what to say .. regarding my course ..
it's likeee ... completely , hopeless.
aiyooooo ughh just let me #$!@#!#@#!#!@

aiyah theres so much that i wanna say .. but its like ..
they are all bottomed up inside me . and i cant spill them all out now .. haha i just feel like lying on my bed ...
eeeee ahhhhhh
and i gotta bathe to wash my hair .. *yawn*
*scratch *

yoohoo!
im back again.. its some time since i last blogged aiyoo .. nobody asks me to update. lols
anyway. my blogskin is getting abit cranky here.
sucha big headache yea. anyway i gotta finish this entry fast. i have something to do =(this is "myIQ" for this online game at er .. i dont rmb the website address. its not bad. quite fun .
btw thats what i get when i first try the game yea . haha i haben try it for the second time ..
maybe i will be playing it again in school .. tomorrow .. hahaha
cos im going to intro them this gameeeee hahah ,i hope .

heres a picture of the back of the kitchen.. we were told that we can sit there for our lunch ..

and you know .. there are so many companions ... flying around at that basket of v-e-g-e-t-a-b-l-e-s over there ... errrrrss

oh i never take pictures of my food. i think the fried/roasted drumlets are nice... haha the skin is crispy heee =)) but i dont think i can afford the food there .. ahahha

AND YEA! this is what i have ,after FIVE WHOLE HOURS OF HARD WORKK ...

*OUCH* ahhaha sayang my wrist .. ><

my wrist hurts .... haha i think my both hands are so weak ..

as my hands/fingers will tremble ... when im serving those heavy trays of food and drinks..

however i would say ... ITS A VERY GOOD EXPERIENCE FOR ME. I WOULD SAY ... I HAVE LEARNT SOMETHING FROM IT .. hahahahaha

the reward, $_$, is gooooddd.. hahah

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