yeahhh haha .. that's my first neoprint+picture uploaded in my blog/website.. i never upload any pics on net before~ Anyway, my stomach HAD A GREAT TIME at PIZZA HUT TODAY .. lala .. J and I shared a Hawaiian Cheesy pizza ..(aiyah ... we got cheated lorh..) a hut platter (all the crispy,fried stuffs) and 1 and 1/2 bowls of chicken soup(WEE! my favourite OKAY =) ).. Haha ..The cheesy PIZZA doesnt look the same as the one in the commercial breaks/advertisments .. Initially, both of us tot we could pull the bread ,which is filled with MELTED CHEESE, from the edges of the pizza ..but it dissappointed us =( if we really pull the break, the whole slice of pizza will come out too .. so AWWW .. we finish off the pizza and all the stuffs still ,so NOT TO waste any cent spent in pizza hut and i think we really did !
Although we had some leftovers, we had decided to make sure of our creative brain cells and create some interesting and "cute" figures with them =) .. Well ,we must reuse and recycle those unwanted materials right .. lala EXCUSES for not being able to finish the food HAHA .. Anyway, we spent $41+ on this so called fantastic meal ..+) the platter is nice ! I love the waffles fries(filled with mashed potato) =) i love fries =) and nuggets of cos ..
THe nuggets in NYP are very affordable LALA ... 5 for $1 .. that made me to be their regular customer =) actually many nyp-ians are their regular customers too =) There's long queue always =(
arghh ... regarding my CODID(design module) , i think i am goin to make a fool out of myself during tomorrow's presentation .. I can predict that =( SO SIAN ..I really dont feel like presenting .. i am not prepared ! lalalall yet i am here AGAIN !really feel like LALAL-ing~ hmm i think i have to sleep late 2night .. i wonder if my rest of my group has finished their reports or not .. =( i am damn frustrated about it ... haiSSSSss .. wish me LUCK !i need it desperately =(

yeahhh haha .. that's my first neoprint+picture uploaded in my blog/website.. i never upload any pics on net before~ Anyway, my stomach HAD A GREAT TIME at PIZZA HUT TODAY .. lala .. J and I shared a Hawaiian Cheesy pizza ..(aiyah ... we got cheated lorh..) a hut platter (all the crispy,fried stuffs) and 1 and 1/2 bowls of chicken soup(WEE! my favourite OKAY =) ).. Haha ..The cheesy PIZZA doesnt look the same as the one in the commercial breaks/advertisments .. Initially, both of us tot we could pull the bread ,which is filled with MELTED CHEESE, from the edges of the pizza ..but it dissappointed us =( if we really pull the bread, the whole slice of pizza will come out too .. so AWWW .. we finish off the pizza and all the stuffs still ,so NOT TO waste any cent spent in pizza hut and i think we really did !
Although we really had some leftovers, we decided to make use of our creative brain cells and create some interesting and "cute" figures with them =) .. Well ,we must reuse and recycle those unwanted materials right? .. lala EXCUSES for not being able to finish the food HAHA .. Anyway, we spent $41+ on this so called fantastic meal ..+) the platter is nice ! I love the waffles fries(filled with mashed potato) =) i love fries =) and nuggets of cos ..
THe nuggets in NYP are very affordable LALA ... 5 for $1 .. that made me to be their regular customer =) actually many nyp-ians are their regular customers too =) There's long queue always =(
arghh ... regarding my CODID(design module) , i think i am goin to make a fool out of myself during tomorrow's presentation .. I can predict that =( SO SIAN ..I really dont feel like presenting .. i am not prepared ! lalalall yet i am here AGAIN !really feel like LALAL-ing~ hmm i think i have to sleep late 2night .. i wonder if my rest of my group has finished their reports or not .. =( i am damn frustrated about it ... haiSSSSss .. wish me LUCK !i need it desperately =(

wahHAHAHAHA .. finally FINALLY .. i can upload my neoprints HERE ! hehe but this neoprints thingy has to upload for so long ... lalalala ...

actually i wanted to post another entry yesterday night ... but i didnt ..haha cos i have to save something to say it in this entry .. aiyah .. actually i m lazy .. anyway .. yesterday's night, my mother accompanied me to lot one =) haha i saw many people when i was on my way to lot one .. i met harith(sec fren), a girl(same cca in sec sch), jackson(poly fren) and etc .. haha .. I saw so many familiar faces lorh .. in the end, i just said HI to one of them.. guess who ?! =P lala well.. yesterday's night was one of my happiest moments of my life cos i went shopping with my MUMMY !? it has been a long time since i last shopped with her .. haix .. i didnt spend much time with her oso .. in fact, i dont spend most of my time with my family but with my friends instead ..lala ..I know i am not as close to them as before and i tink they know it too .. This is damn obvious .. HAIS .. my life is IN A MESS .. anyway .. back to THE-TRIP-IN-LOT-ONE-YESTERDAY-NIGHT .. i took neoprint with my mum !!! And she's SOOO cute .. i nv lie .. 100% true lo .. haha .. i really wan to put up the neo .. Unfortunately, my scanner cannot connect to THIS FREAKING OLD com .. arghh nvm .. as long as i can use tis com to play and msn ,it's enough =)

LIFE IS FULL OF UPS AND DOWNS ..Look at how happy i was yesterday and i am feeling QUITE down now.. lala ..thanks to JACKY WU ..haha I felt better after watching his show =) SOMEONE SAID I M EMOTIONAL and i AGREED with that person .. haha TEARS just streams down of my cheeks uncontrollably when i feel quite upset ..WEI .. I FIND IT V OKAY TO CRY LORH .. IT'S A WAY TO RELIEVE MYSELF FROM STRESS ..However,at the same time, i will be named as CRYBABY .. well i dun care anymore.. cos it's not as if i can control my tears .. feeling so lousy

I have been losing many things ever since i was born to this world .. well .. and it's due to some reasons
1)forgetful
2)careless
3)clumsy (dropped my stuff and nv realise that)
4)mindless (stupid enough to leave my bag unattended )
and so on ..

stupid me .. no wonder i am a easy target for those pple who intend to steal (stealers?)

I've been wondering what have i NOT lost in my life yet ..
i lost ..
-wallet
-handphones(2?)
-trust in me
-friendship
-the WHOLE bag .. lalalalal (i got LOTS OF STUFFS INSIDE LORH!!)
(there's a neoprint inside!! and my sheep magnet LALA=()
-my brother's EZLINK (i am SO SO guilty about it)
-a pendant
-a IMPORTANT keychain =(
-credibility
-MY BRAIN ?!
-library books? !

What will i lose next ?! Love? my LIFE? HAH

I feel so sorry for ur POPO ,joyce .. i really HOPE she will recover FAST and leave that sickening HOSPITAL as soon as possible .. The air inside is not fresh =) I am glad to know that You have grown mature abit =) You are beginning to realise your responsibilitieS in life =). You know life is that fragile .. Who knows what will happen in the next second,right?... That's why i urge U to treasure the people around u .. esp ur PARENTS =)

btw .. my mum found my library BOOK .. that's THE NICEST NEWS i ever heard =) cos i only have to pay 20cents for the fine =) keke

_haha i edited tis post so many times =X_

cool! This is the 2nd entry for the day! I wonder when i have become SO so hardworking .. I have been visiting various kinds of blogs these few days and have been quite inspired by their words .. Well..I may feel that my days are very rotten but the others are not having a great time too ! I mean ,the others will also have their own kind of problems .. bla bla bla .. wad am i saying here .. I feel like saying loads and loads of things here but i just couldnt type out here .. arghh i feel so lousy ..I think bloggers,who blogged consistently, are so great! I can really learn lots of things from their blogs .. Unfortunately , many of them seem to have stopped blogging these few days. I think they are probably busy with their exams HAHA unlike me (blogged the 2nd time in a day)..Well ,i have my reports ,pd, assignments to do BUT i just dont feel like starting ..Perhaps i think i have lots of time still BLEH ...stop deceiving urself larh MAY ...-.-..i just dun have the mood to do anything,except for blogging ..HAHA ...ohMAN.. i am so ENGROSSED in this bloggy thinky ...@#%#$%@%@# oh .. yanling(lingling)(aiyah she's my poly fren) said i am very EASILY influenced ..MAYBE YESH MAYBE NO .. i thought to myself .. i wanna defend for myself so much BUT sometimes i am really like what she has said .. ARGGGHH

NEVER BE THE SHADOW OF ANYONE'S <- that's my principle

i am trying to go according to that .. BUT sickening ,i found myself owalse observing what the others behave .. I DUN WAN TO BE LIKE THEM . . I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN UNIQUE STYLE okaY ?! Stop saying that i copied someone STOP IT OKAY .. i dun wan to be a COPYCAT ..i am being influenced only .. I know it's very DOTS .. but i just never UNDERSTAND.. why is it okay for the others to copy me WHILE it's a NOT-A-NICE-THING-TO-DO for me to adopt the style of others ..hey ..I HAVE MY RIGHT also lorh .. why isit wrong to absorb the gd quality of the others ? anyway... i have to CONSTANTLY remind myself NOT TO BE A COPYCAT ..
(whoa, i have LOTS of STUFFS to remind myself of.. AWwww~)

SOMEONE told me .. things will change and people will change too .. YESH that's a fact .. i dun deny and doesnt try to change .. but at the very least, i hope that things wun change so dramatically .. i just couldnt adapt and accept the fact ... aww ... sad to say huh .. haha too bad cause i'm a TAURUS =) MMOOOO.. a stubborn freak =)

btw .. there are some glamourous TAURUS living on tis earth like dawn yeoh ,XIAXUE etc =) i admire them !~ <3s .. They make we ,Taurus, proud! =) Taurus is not a lousy horoscope afterall yipee ! hah

it's a few hours later and i am here agn .. =( my mood is spoilt .. hais .. I dun even have the mood to play 02jam now ,which is something i longing to do during the weekdays .. hais ....sad sad saD .. i really HATE people to say SORRY to me .. Do you think a word "sorry" will help to solve everything ?! The answer is a definate NO .. to me .. those people are heart-breakers .. WALKING AROUND WITH THEIR HAMMERS labelled sorry ..HAH .. WEIRD DESCRIPTION ..well i shall gif a typical example ~ IF i slap u HARD in ur face and say SORRY .. i slapped you .. will u forgive mi ? You may say "yesh" if i nv do it on purpose .. but if i did ?! just like what my friend had done to me .. She knew she will hurt me by breaking her promises OVER and over agn YET SHE ..She even tried to cover up her lies (i tink they are lies) by giving excuseS and EXcuSES (some are so LAME that i couldnt even believe) lalala .... forgive and forget !! i m being agitated AGAIN ..WHAT A FAILURE! i am easily angered =(

BREATHE IN //\\ BREATHE OUT //\\ BREATHE IN \\// BREATHE OUT =) =)

wahh .. i m feeling better now .. shall edit tis post some other day when i feel like doin .. =) night ..

signed off ,panda eyes ..

YESH !~ Here comes my friday .. i spent my time reading people's blogs agn today .. haha .. and i am so impressed by them ..Be it the language they use or the contents they have .. That really reminds me that i have to work very hard on my english =) the key language .. my chinese is alrdy deteriotating .. =( arhhhgg.. have to talk more really..or i shall blog more..
arghh, im not that happy today... not satified with EVERYTHING i do.. simply everything and anything that are in front of my fiery eyes.. i got fed up with EVERYTHING.. especially human beings..i cannot trust that threatening creature.. i really dunoe what are in their minds? i cant understand them ! haha ... actually it's HARD to understand someone anyway .. =( i am so sad .. i just find some of them so KAISU .. i dislike that kind of behaviour .. so selfish ..everything that she thinks is about herself lorh .. hah i m so fed up of it .. It's like she is the missy and we are the slaves ..(some sort larh)When she is done with her assignment ,she will rush us and keep saying QUICK LARH QUICK LARH .. but when it's our turn to wait for her.. we say nothing lorh .. even if i rush her .. it's like ONCE or TWICE ONLY -,- but she kept on HURRYING ME .. i hate PPLE to rush me .. it just shut me down from doin anything .. i dun have the mood to produce a GD PIECE of work ..What am i trying to say here is ... i hate pple who are so FULL OF HERSELF/himself..that makes HER/him seems to be SO sick in my point of view OPPS .. i just cant stand it ... HEY YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE LIVING ON THIS EARTH OKAY ?

haHA i saw my online friend today .. actually he is not bad-looking lorh .. quite handsome though .. i saw his pic b4 .. OK WAD ..but he insisted that he's ugly ..aww WATEVA ..anyway .. his eyes look dark to me .. cos i looked at him at a distant ..As both of us are having our tutorial at the LAB(SAME BLOCK SUMMORE) ..we get to use the coms ..HEH ..Thus, i asked him whether he was. haha Then, we had a hard time discussing about our actual location at that time..We even drew out the map of block L HAHA ..but i am quite unfamiliar with block L so i still need to spend some time to digest the map and look arnd in order to give him an idea of where i am =X in the end he DIN get to see me HAHA but i managed to catch a glance of him .. when i was scanning for him and i finally SPOTTED him ,he seems to be alrdy looking at my direction ! therefore, i quickly made my move and took the lift down .. =)

oh yah .. yyy said ,"This M&m t-sHIRT is BIG for you.." .. i was quite suprised .. she's like observing my clothings everyday HAHAAaa cos she gave quite a few comments on several clothings alrdy ~~

WEEE ..! i gonna make this really SHORT =) i wanna bathe =X ..
The MOST AMAZING THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY is ... i GOT AN A for my DRAWING ! HEHE .. I M SO OVERJOYED LORH !!! first time .. it was my FIRST time getting an A for my drawing ..this is something worths celebrating .. so i rewarded myself with a MANGO bubble tea... and .. it's SO ..OMGOSH YUCKy !opps ..yanling tried and thought that it's okay ... aww wateva .. i LOVE THE PEARLS STILL !=) ..i ate them all up before throwing the bubble tea into the trash can ... i must be REMINDED ... NEVER EVER buy MANGO BUBBLE TEA from FOOD JUNCTION(i tink.. nt sure whether it;s food court/food junction) .. i drew some weird stuffs during the lecture today .. like marging my monkey magnet with an ordinary eraser .. i am NOT THAT creative afterall .. cos mr edwin (my drawing tutor) couldnt make out what i am drawing for my latest homework ..haha ..and i din manage to complete my drawing assignment 4 in sch on time .. that's so SAD .. That's another one which piles up my workload =,= arggh .. the WORST thing is .. i have a PRESENTation on tis COMING TUESDAY ... WAHH ... WHICH OCCUPIES 50% OF MY MODULE result ? lallala ...
another thing that SADDEN me today is my colour thoery module. For THIS part ONE of my color assignment, i have reDO-ed for the 2nd time ..and it's REJECTED by the teacher .. HOW SAD CAN I BE ? so i am goin for the 3RD try ;D ..hoping to get a passing grade at least .. BUT TIS IS REALLY SADDENING ..it really dampens my mood on that day .. but luckily .. lingling is there to cheer mi up ..;D .. she is SOOOOoo CUTE .. i feel like lying my head on her shoulder or pinching her face when i see her ... it's just so irresistable ..oppSSss.. she wun see this anyway HA !

i have my VA PRACTICAL test today .. and do you know wad?! i cheated today agn .. haha -,- i have a theory test on communication skills on tis coming wednesday .. i am wondering whether i will cheat on that day or not .. i hope that .. but to me .. that comm skills theory test is like aN ENGLISH test to me .. wahhh .. i thought the moment i entered POLY, i will not have to have any eng test .. however .. argghhh .. SEE ! i told you guys before .. THINGS WILL ALWAYS CHANGE ..NOTHING WILL STAY THE SAME .. it's a fact and we have to accept it ..luckily, i didnt go JC becos i tink i will surely flunk GP ;D ..My eng simply SUX haha .. anyway i m happy today =) cos i ACE my practical test =)hee .. actually i din really cheat larh .. i just ask the friendly classmate ,who was sitting besides me, to give me some tips .. since he SHOUTED,"YEAH !i finally know how to animate it!" it's like .. he's my hope ! haha .. everyone in my grp seems to be stuck in the VERY FIRST part(animation) of the test =)but ,in the end, we all had gotten over it ..Surprisely, most of us got A for the test HA!
After that va practical test ,i went for the comm skills' tutorial.. that's my LAST tutorial with our tutor.MS AGNES.. actually she's a very cute teacher...haha at least she wouldnt give us any stress ,unlike other tutors =) We were released at 12.15pm which is SUPER DUPER early .. cos we are supposed to be release at 1 pm instead ..She will normally let us off earlier too .. haha =) i must not dissapoint her in next wed's test den haha .. no larh .. and oso trying to pull up my grade =)

i spent half of my day at J's house .. hee .. she showed some pictures and blogs of kranjians to me.. haha .. the girls nowadays are getting more feminine and cuter .. i love to look at people's eyes .. cos i am normally attracted to the eyes first when i looked at one's face .. =) they are interesting okay .. some are naturally brimming with tears but actually they arent crying =) and most importantly ,they are BIG !=)hee .. opps .. should start on my drawing pd and colour theory assignment NOW! N-O-W ! =) .. otherwise i will be a dead meat tomorrow .. really DEAD .. *choyCHOY* heeH

i know that i should be consistent in blogging .. that's why i am here ! haha .. trying to blog whenever i have the time .. i was quite happy these few days because nothing upsets me yet .. HAHA .. be it my assignments , my life or my computer games .. i THINK everything has gone smoothly for me =) at least i would think in this way .. haha i get to take NEOPRINTS with my FRIENDS yesterday AGAIN ! i am SO SO so happy .. haha ..cos i love neoprints and is partly because the neoprint machine is NEW to me ..That machine allows us to PUT MAKEUP on our faces lo !! haha SO COOL ! However, we turned out to look like "ren yao" in the end haha ..but nvm .. WE LIKE IT ! =) as least it is something different to my neoprints collection .. haha btw .. J says i look gd when i have some makeup on .. maybe i should learn to meddle with makeup .. at least i will look more decent ? haha .. aww .. so sad .. i have to put on some makeup in order to look nice .. HA .. anyway ..i think i am going to study my VA(VisualAudio) by reading that THICK book on FINAL CUT PRO.. awww no choice .. i had a PRACTICAL test on that 2mr .. haha btw that book reminds me of Amaths TEXTbook which has rotten by now 0_o.. ahhaha =)
ohyah! i have a theory VA test during the VA lecture .. haha .. i CHEATED !oopps .. i cant believe that i am SO honest to admit here .. actually my grp cheated very obviously lo .. some just turned their head to their left or right lo while some peeped into their bags and look for the answers from the notes or the small piece of paper they have copied all their answers onto .. haha .. it's just a test.. yet we are so serious ..why ? becos we all know that we wun have exams ... so tests are what we matter =) i wonder how many % does that test occupied .. HEY but i tell u guys .. although i have cheated in the test, i think i will still have problems passing !? weird huh .. wateva ..
*i brought 80 cents to school today .. haha so i borrowed $3.50 from lingling for my lunch .. haha she's so good =) cos she will always help when it's within her limits .. she's SOOOOOSooo nice .. =) muacks .. haha =X opps .. she wun be able to see this anyway=)*
oh yah .. gotta tell myself THIS " PLS GET SERIOUS IN EVERYTHING I DO !HAHA MY FIRST SEMESTER IS GOING TO END YOU KNOW !! NO MORE HOLIDAY MOOD FOR ME =) "i wanna catch up with the others in my class .. i know i will be stuck at the bottom of the class/batch .. which is something i dont want to happen .. so work hard .. ! same for u guys ! =)

TIRED! yesh today is another tired day for me YET i feel v happy hah ..REALLY DAMN happy =) feel like grinning for the whole day .. hee .. went to westwood secondary .. cos there's a carnival goin on at there ..well, intially we(joyceANDme) wanna discard the idea of goin but we had bought the tickets($15!) SO no choice ! Haha we went there eventually ..by taking bus 172..
Luckily we went there ! haha it's fun =) actually, we feel quite lost when we jz reached there cos it's like an unfamiliar place to us .. (we=lost sheep) .. wandering arnd .. follow the crowd .. and walked to their parade square i tink .. yah ..we are looking for huimin(huiqi's couz)[ohyah .. huiqi nv go lorh .. i tot she say if we are goin, she will be goin too .. inthe end .. well forget it..] .. but we couldnt find her .. so we decided to walk arnd ourselves .. but soon ..(after one round of "window-shopping") we saw her .. and she asked us to enjoy ourselves and we really DID ! haha .. we started buying some balloons ..cos they can REALLY FLY !!!!! haha so i bought a PURPLE,myfav, balloon ..actuallly we spent our first $ on fried rice in the CANTEEN .. i find it LAME ..... hahah cos there's a carnival wif lotsa food YET .. we went to the canteen for food ,anyway .. other den the purple balloon ,we bought a $1.50 balloon origami .. hope to post the pics up sometimes .. it's a heart wif 2 doggies hugging it .. haha .. actually we wanna 2 bears but the gal dunoe how to make one .. soo 4get it =) the heart is not exactly heart ... it looks more like a oval or circle .. intially J wanna pump the helium(gas for balloon) into the origami but they dun allow cos the origami will burst .. so TOO BAD ..J MADE USE OF HER FABULOUS CREATIVITY and made the origami floated in the air ..wanna noe why ?! HA!~ THAT'S A SECRET !=) That made our balloon looks so extraordinary =) we are so PAISEH and PROUD of our balloonS .. and i feel that it's SOOooo romantic .. KEKE =X
then ,we went to the 2nd floor to take pics of our WONDERFUL creation and the innovative inventor , JOYCE!! .. TADA! ~~took quite alot of pics of her(HAHA) and the balloons ..well i m nt as self-obessed as her =) afterwards ,we felt hungry agn (after killing so many brain cells and energy for that 'wonderful' creation~~) so bought soyabean milk (sao dou nai) followed by the FAT JUICY sausage and MASHED POTATO(it really tastes nice !)..and a worth $2 coupon was left ..and J spent it on the FISHES ! nt that we are goin to eat fillets but we are goin to fish (catch small guppies with a pathetic flat net) and she managed to catch 3 =) the guppies are so clever ..almost each guppy jumped out of the net when it was about to drop into the container(actually is a plastic bag) ..and it's TIME TO LEAVE!
went to jurong .. settle down in the lib and wait for huiqi to come .. haha .. im quite tired now .. er .. sorry .. my brain is not working .. so i decided not to say anymore .. i dun tink there is a person who is so patient to read until here .. anywaY .. i m happy that i took some neos with HER TODAY =)yeahhh i love neoprints so much .. the backgrnds+effects+decorations are so cool and CUTE she's cute too.. yeah ! i look out for CUTE stuffs =) kk .. i dun have the energy to get high over tis tinky at tis moment it's 12.27AM =X gotta bathe after TIS so i got to HURRY ..
btw THANKS JOYCE for reminding me of the things we had done at the carnival .. my STM is getting worser and worser .. anyway .. night GUYS =)
oh oh .. i wan to congrat sharon that she has her guy/boy to <3>SHARON !u shld tell us or at least inform all of us in ur blog marh !!! it's a GREAT NEWS u noe ! i m VERY HAPPY FOR U =)

TIRED! yesh today is another tired day for me YET i feel v happy hah ..REALLY DAMN happy =) feel like grinning for the whole day .. hee .. went to westwood secondary .. cos there's a carnival goin on at there ..well, intially we(joyceANDme) wanna discard the idea of goin but we had bought the tickets($15!) SO no choice ! Haha we went there eventually ..by taking bus 172..
Luckily we went there ! haha it's fun =) actually, we feel quite lost when we jz reached there cos it's like an unfamiliar place to us .. (we=lost sheep) .. wandering arnd .. follow the crowd .. and walked to their parade square i tink .. yah ..we are looking for huimin(huiqi's couz)[ohyah .. huiqi nv go lorh .. i tot she say if we are goin, she will be goin too .. inthe end .. well forget it..] .. but we couldnt find her .. so we decided to walk arnd ourselves .. but soon ..(after one round of "window-shopping") we saw her .. and she asked us to enjoy ourselves and we really DID ! haha .. we started buying some balloons ..cos they can REALLY FLY !!!!! haha so i bought a PURPLE,myfav, balloon ..actuallly we spent our first $ on fried rice in the CANTEEN .. i find it LAME ..... hahah cos there's a carnival wif lotsa food YET .. we went to the canteen for food ,anyway .. other den the purple balloon ,we bought a $1.50 balloon origami .. hope to post the pics up sometimes .. it's a heart wif 2 doggies hugging it .. haha .. actually we wanna 2 bears but the gal dunoe how to make one .. soo 4get it =) the heart is not exactly heart ... it looks more like a oval or circle .. intially J wanna pump the helium(gas for balloon) into the origami but they dun allow cos the origami will burst .. so TOO BAD ..J