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Sunday, March 02, 2008
seriously, sometimes i feel that i really have no friends. or rather ,i feel empty inside. i feel that no one cares , no one bothers and im just a pain in the neck i jsut dont understand, why cant they just pay some attention to me, when i was talking why dont they listen when im talking or saying somethings sometimes are my words so not important? or am i too softspoken that i have not made myself loud enough or am i so invisble that they didnt realise that im around im really, enough with all these nonsense. if one can really survive as an isolated island, i would, long ago, be one infact, i was one , in the past. now that i have tried to open up myself more, i feel that my friends aint ,sensitive to my feelings all they could see the , =D + +] me, maybe well, i know there are some pple ,who really cares, when they know that im moody ,and came over to ask about me i appreciate their concerns. however, some people , just disappoint me, totally. who is willing to be there to emo with me... i got quite upset a week ago.. i feel so , sad about the things that happened. sad abt the people, whom i think are close to me, they dont actually know me and care about me. they dont even know that im angry with them perhaps, in their hearts, they will be thinking, "may is tired may is stressed up with her work she needs a rest, i better dont bother her. " or even OTHERWISE? "shes moody, leave her alone. she will be alright on her own." oh i dont know. however what i really need ,at that point of time, is concern! i want people to come over and ask ,"how are you" blabla .. shower me with their concerns.. to let me feel that, im not alone actually.. =( =( +(=( =(=( +(+(+( why is it so hard to be happy ? now that my psp is confiscated by !@#$!@#!#!3 i have lost my another source of entertainment and happiness so screwed ,alright. still need to wait for 2 more weeks what a rotten 29 feb 2008 i have. --- you know , love just turn sour, when one always takes more than one gives. when money is involved. when there's betrayal. when theres lies. THERES NO TRUST, anymore.
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