Wednesday, March 21, 2007

i got so stressed up when theres comparison going on
maybe im so not disciplined enough to keep improving at my own rate ,without being affected
sometimes, to be frank, i really get really demoralised to see people AROUND ME getting high gpa .
i dread (or im scared of) pple asking for my gpa now
but at the same time, i WAS happy that i have improved .. even though thats a small improvement ..
yeah WAS,
cos i realise that i have been thinking (or questioning myself )about my future lately
i aint happy with the grades i have now..
yeah obviously, and i have tried .. tried to improve
but i guess, im too late to repent
one year is over
and yeah, there isnt an ans to it ..
im hanging in the middle of nowhere
hais, should i persevere or .. should i change my course?
..
but .. NEVERMIND, thats how i always consoled myself
yet ..sometimes ,its really depressing to face the reality

today , i have checked my gpa ..
not unsatisfying ,yet still not acceptable
haha

reality

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