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Saturday, February 24, 2007
i m wondering .. if ..good words will ever come out from my mouth ?am i getting more and more sarcastic ?my mouth cant bear to say good words of anyone ..hahathey asked me .. what are friends to me?sadly to say, i replied them with ,"they are human beings, who can have fun with."full stop . haha sadden reply ,i knowbut, some stuffs .. i cant bear to say it outlater on, they questioned agn,"what is a stead to me"i replied with a "NOTHING"haha ,nonchalant ? ,wateva.. they told me to share .. but ..i.. dunoe where to start from ? or im just being too embarassed to say them out?are they really sincere to hear me out when i am really sincere to share o.o ?i wun want them to pity me ..wateva the case, i just dun have the gutsthus, u can probably see me being down,and not talking.. or see me being so carefree and relaxa talker is always a talker,whereas, a listener will always remain as a listeneri feel like a monk, and friends are like, asking comb from meas a monk, i wanna break all those rules .. and eat and drink as and when i like .. but the problem is .. i dun have the guts .. i dun have .. the will power to say out what i m feelingcos ,then, u will realise/know another me?(actually, im not referring to all of my frens ,but.. hais maybe ,im afraid of being seen through?)if .. i can say out how im feeling .. i wouldnt feel so suffocated throughtout these 17 yrs .. isnt it i always ask myself that qns ..whats the prob.. i think is becos i dun even understand myselfthus, im not being able to answer those simple qns about myself ?what a failure ? hahawhy didnt i have the guts?why didnt i have the guts?why?what am i fearing ?rejection ? awkwardness?sometimes, i feel that online frens are bettersorry =(
5:43 PM
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Yours Truly
Procrastinator
12ofMAY89
girl
MAYlim
known as "yam" in cyberspace, not becos i love yam, but the color..
haha nah .. just becos ..
i think u can guess the reason behind it.
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currently studying ~~
busy, yet available to go out? xP
I WANT TO TRY EVERYTHING. lols
TRY WOULDNT DIEE RIGHTTTT
LETS DO SOMETHING CRAZY TODAY!~
my belief : Actions speak louder than words. DO IT, don't JUST TALK about it .
cos TALK IS CHEAP. ^^ ATNA sucks xP.
bit by bit, day by day,
we can ,and gonna be stranger AGAIN ~
tell yourself this:
"快樂不是因為擁有的多，
而是因為計較的少"
-==desire==-
BEAUTIFUL brows
LATI DOLL!
contact lens!
TRY -spa/pedicure/manicure
more Tees(my aim:<$<10!)/li>
black shorts
CROPPED cardigan*
jeans
more PSPgames!!!<3
canvas shoes(black)
GOD DIVA'S DARK/WHITEchocolate
eat CRAYFISH
happiness & love
keepINTOUCH with friends
LOVEmyfamily MORE
SILKY&SHINY hair
beTANNEDandTONED
SMILE MORE!
PASSmyFYPJ+PORTFOLIO
GRADUATE withMYFRIENDS
MORE DECISIVE
INDEPENDENCE
A part-time job
THATpairof VINTAGEearrings!!
PIERCEear(my right ear)+ one more on my left's
bracelet-like WATCH
kawaii/black EARSTUDS
BLACK RING
TRY SQUASH!
WHITEN MY TEETH
GO CLUBBING WITH FRIENDS^^
watch MADAGASCAR II !!
a healthy relationship
GRADUATION TRIP WITH MY FRIENDS!
MACDONALD BREAKFAST!
LJS BREAKFAST!
KFC BREAKFAST!
MUSIC BOX(da toy shop_orchard)
polariod camera!
THINKINGGGGGGGGG!
I LOVE, MY LOVES
BLINGS!
black,white,grey,purple,orange and NEON COLORS
<3 family and friends
FUN!
EXERCISE ONCEaweek
companions
people LOVE and CARE for me
mocha frappe, or any chocolatey drinks/food
chill by the river, i love night sceneries
YOU,to spend time with me
MONEY! of cos
a job in the NEAR future
I hate, MY hates
people who make EMPTY PROMISES
jerks and bitches
narcissist
UNCERTAINY&INSECURITY
tell me, is it so hard to achieve all that?! xP
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