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Sunday, August 27, 2006
today.. my MOOD went wild .. YESH ..intially i m so SO looking forward to sth .. in the end , something UNexpected cropped up and my mood TURNED the other way around .. i just hate myself for being like that .. but when i have calmed myself down ..i will usually realise how stubborn i am for not able to accept the changes .. they are just some SIMPLE small changes yet i am so worked up today .. UNEXPECTED incidents really can affect my mood alot .. esp for those which are very last-min.. hais WHY IS THIS TAURUS SO STUBBORN WHY .. =( hais .. yeah angry with me pple .. i m liddat .. i have changed .. FROM someone who will owalse say ANYTHING ..TO someone with a weird taste, weird attitude (everything is in chaos) .. HATE MI LARH .. COS I HATE ALL OF YOU TOO .. i want to be isolated yet if i am really are, my tears will .. automatically fill my eyes to the brim .. STUPID ..told u i am irony .. perhaps this unfinished ,going-to-due-date project has driven me up to the wall .. PLAYING COMPUTER GAMES is not goin to relax mi abit .. it will only remind me that i m being irresponsible again as i am doing the wrong thing at the wrong time .. IF i aint able to finish my project, i BET lingling will for sure say this.. "What have you been doing the weekends(or ur freetime)?!" how shld i reply her ?playing ? NO.. i nv play that much alrdy .. =( =( .. perhaps PERHAPS ..i m really not cut for this course .. i dun have that MUCH affection for this course .. if i have the passionate, i will finish it one week ago .. (just like what i have done for my maths worksheets in the past) ART is SUPPOSED to be a leisure or sth we enjoy doing BUT WHY AM I STRUGGLING SO HARD now .. i shld really really think hard about it~ joyce ,HATE ME larh ..ha . i m moody .. SORRY for not goin your house today .. i am TERRIBLY SORRY (even if u din see this .. i really wan to say SORRY to u)
1:30 PM
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