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Monday, August 21, 2006
Shall i feel sad when you ask mi to SHOO and feel happy when you ask me to COME ? .. Am i thinking too much all along ? Shall i pretend nth has happened when sth disastrous+saddening happened ? Shall i be sad when you 4get my face and ask,"Do i know you?" Am i supposed to hesitate and think whether i shld say HI when i see/meet someone i know? Am i able to control my feelings infront of everybody ? and so on .. i will think of all these nonsensical qns when im being alone or keeping quiet .. maybe at that point of time, i m stoning .. i dunoe COS when pple ask mi ,"What's on your mind?" i will like .. 'HUH .. nth larh' LOL my mind will like.. being refresh when somebody interupts my deep thoughts .. yeah i tink they are deep thoughts cos i m normally think until v far .. considering the negative and positive sides(like wad will probably happen in the far future) .. maybe i am being paranoid .. i hate myself for taking every sentence,which is made by pple, so seriously maybe sometimes they are just passing a casual remark BUT why i will think SO much after their anyhow-make comments .. perhaps i want to improve myself SO much .. yet i dont have the guts to OPEN my mouth and ask "how do you think of me?" hais .. what a failure huh BLEH =P kaykay .. anyway.. i WENT TO NYP TODAY to meet my dear MENTOR ..for that NEW MODULE=STUDIO PROJECT and that's not a fruitful trip at all (i tink i waste my time travelling there) complete that COMPULSORY student feedback and it's like SO LAME LORH.. i dun have the heart to do .. (we have to do ..er ..6 i tink and the feedback is totally the same lorh) so i read the qns CAREFULly in the 1st round of feedbacking and i do it quite seriously lorh but after rounds of feedbacking , i am tired(i m kneeling at that time..NO CHAIR LORH!!) so for the last 4 feedbacks(=X bleh!) i put AGREE for most of the qns .. and YAY one down(cos that has to be done b4 25 aug so it saves mi one trip to nyp) [i dun have lessons for this entire wk, yet it's not holiday okay! i have a new module to rush] and that new module is stressing me up lorh cos the deadline is next tues which means i nid to get EVERYTHING DONE BY TUES ! OMGOSH CAN I DO IT OR NOT ! omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg i have a 10 MINUTES presentation next week =( sad sad sad .. gotta present again =( i wan to eat MEE SUA w OYSTERS + KFC(i have the coupons!) wahhaha yesh its fattening =( hais ... so how am i goin to slim down =\ =( sad later someone doesnt like me anymore =(
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